| Such a Bitch... |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|12:05 pm] |
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| | The Used | ] |
Confusion is such a bitch...this should not be happening to me....to anybody. If I could live just day by day in this subject I know what I would do, but that is not the way to handle it. It would hurt way too much. I must figure it out....and it will take a lil time. This isn't what I wanted to happen...ever. |
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| ...yep |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|11:43 am] |
Here I sit all broken hearted, could of shit but only farted...
I have no idea why that came to mind...probably because poop is cool. Anybody have any poop stories....I would love to hear them. |
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| I am alive... |
[Feb. 22nd, 2005|01:15 pm] |
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| |  cynical | ] |
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| | Green Day- Suburbia Jesus | ] |
Yo friends,
I know it is weird, me, updating and all but I figured it is necessary every 6 months or so. I am sitting here in TV-10 which is my internship. Yeah, I am doing nothing at the time but that isnt always the case. The truth is I direct the news and a sports show. I also work at WMBD on the weekends for you that havent talked to me in so long. There are some of you that I have attempted to get ahold of numerous times but you just dont like me I guess. But anyways, I am sitting here updating and watching Jason Parkinson and this John guy work on this TV show that TV10 puts on called "Dinner With Jason" it is rather interesting and funny. Jason goes on blind dates to nice little restaurants and gets shot down....everytime....because he is ugly...and has no future in entertainment;)....just kidding...he is awesome...I envy his talent....but I have my own I guess.
I really dont have much to say....but...I had a dream the other night that Aubra was a star basketball player...hmm...weird....I dunno. Maybe it was because I was hoping to wake up next to her;p haha...
So, does anybody want to speak of what they would do or think if they woke up next to me? |
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| uhhh ok? |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|08:26 am] |
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| |  working | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jimmy Eat World | ] |
The Used, My Chemical Romance, and Taking Back Sunday this Friday....yay! |
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| Boredom, Fatness and Masturbation |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|02:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | goldfinger | ] |
Living in Bloomington/Normal is awesome compared to Canton I will admit, but, when it is the week of Thanksgiving and I am stuck in Bloomington/Normal then I am bored out of bloody mind. I would love to see my friends that I have not seen all semester...maybe even since last xmas break. I have to work today, tomorrow, and thanksgiving morning. This means that i am gonna miss the biggest boozing night of the year which most of my old friends will be attending. Oh well, my gut that continues to form prosperly needs a break....like a million sit ups of a break.....that would mean it is really not getting a break then....hmm...I think the stomach is the hardest working muscle in your body....well...in mine....forget the tongue or heart. My heart hasnt had a workout in so long....I am lazy...I am just a lazy-fat college student. Oh, and about the tongue....I don't get to make out very much either....so...I dunno....I dont get much of a workout there either. I guess I am not complaining....I have a great gfriend, and as long as I am stuck here alone I have my hand....that is so depressing! Especially when yesterday Laken told me that her bfriend says that I cry when I masturbate....come on! Is that possible?....when I do it, I feel relieved, relaxed, and if I am upset it takes the feelings away....the hand is your best friend ladies and gentlemen. If you do not use it ladies, you are missing out:p |
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| drunk and missing my sweet pea |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|03:17 am] |
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| |  indifferent | ] |
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| | std.-requeim | ] |
so it is a great first night back in normal....but I miss my lari! :( I love that girl so much....I cant wait to see her again...but I drank a lot and now it is time to totally pass out....because I am seriously buzzed off myt bootyyyyyyyy...lool hagha.....night nightb yanll....:p |
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| My frickin feet eeeotch like a beeeotch |
[Jul. 12th, 2004|01:24 am] |
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| | bugs suck! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Juliana Theory | ] |
I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate mosquito bites........but I like Lari a lot! She is so great...and she knows how to make me smile. |
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| kick me |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|12:27 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Maroon 5 | ] |
yeah seriously...nothing else to say but kick me...really hard...and I may wake from this really great dream that I dream... |
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| fucking shit! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2003|11:54 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Final Fantasy X-2 music | ] |
My life was great last week. No worries...holiday...all you could ask for....this week sux balls! This week you could call it....hell! |
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[Nov. 18th, 2003|11:12 am] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | From Autumn to Ashes- I am the best at ruining my life | ] |
There is nothing to post.... |
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| To regret or to be proud? |
[Nov. 17th, 2003|03:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Thursday | ] |
This weekend was amazing. I have came to the conclusion that beating around the bush is irrelevant. Just go for what you want or desire....because according to this weekend, it works. What am I supposed to do now...I dont know what to feel....I dont wanna feel anything...but happiness that it happened. Ill just go on with my life and whatever happens...happens...no trying. Why try? Working at something just makes YOUR feelings stronger for that particular thing. You gamble doing that....getting crushed...or gaining something. Hmmm...if it is meant to happen...it will...There has to be some significance to what happened. |
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| Adrianne, I stole this from you...and put it how it in my own version... |
[Nov. 14th, 2003|03:46 pm] |
name:
location:
age:
1) will you be my girlfriend?
2) why?
3) are you just saying no because I have spent the last 20 years of my life as an...hmmm how should I say it..."overly experienced in the opposite sex?"......or.....are you saying yes because you feel sorry for me because for 18-19 years of my life I had more hair and I was a hell of a lot more attractive then I am now?
3b) prove it.
4) are you hot?
5) anything else to add goes here: |
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| Things you do...affect 5 years down the road...believe me... |
[Nov. 6th, 2003|12:34 am] |
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| |  dirty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ultimate Fakebook | ] |
For every chance I take...I will think twice first...and then a few more times. Too many times have I done something and I did not think about it. Too many times have I let the wrong guy on the wrong shoulder persuade me what to do in situations. Now, I have failed at so many things, so many oppurtunities. Pleasure....it is not all it is cracked up to be. In the long-run....all it does is bring you pain. It is time to work...work hard. Live for success...mostly...in faithfulness. People say I have no will-power...well...I know I do. I just never was determined to use it. Now, I am....finally...I AM. The pain grows far worse in all cases more than ever. Time to change these feelings....and lifestyle around. |
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| Mourning......the worst... |
[Nov. 4th, 2003|01:05 am] |
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| |  listless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Ataris- So Long Astoria | ] |
Ok, This will be my depressed entry....I am making myself a rule...no crying on livejournal more than once every couple months. Well, here it goes: Something very disturbing came to my mind tonite. Yes, I think about this subject all the time but this time it is different. One year ago this month things started to fall apart with....well...everybody knows that knows me. The fall....it was symbolic....the trees, grass...everything was dying...and so was....Marci and me. It is weird....the more and more time passes....the more I get disturbed from time to time by how everything went down and I was the one that started it. I went for Brynn (stupid me) and told Marci after she got her plane ticket and all that I did not want her here on Thanksgiving. I dont understand...how could somebody actually take hold of my emotions and heart as much as she did....to the point where it affects me more now than it did then. As much as I cared about the girls I dated this past year I never planted those three words on anybody....even melissa.....not even close. I am scared that I will never plant those words on anybody ever again. I mean, I am willing to take a chance with people. I know someday maybe...I will find somebody that can actually take back what I lost from Marci's stingy grasp she has on my life....my whole life. I have been good about this....I dont speak so much about her anymore. But I can not do it anymore. It kills my insides. I cant just sit here...alone...and wait for something to happen with her....how do I know if anything will come of us again...me and her family hope so....I wonder sometimes if she still feels the same way. The distance....the distance is such shit. Well, if I had another chance...there would be no distance. I am willing to sacrifice so much for her.
"I'm committed to all these memories of you" :( |
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| a short update....of the good things |
[Nov. 3rd, 2003|12:29 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Thrice, Chevelle, and Ataris | ] |
It has been a while since I updated.....poop. Well, last thursday I went to see Alkaline Trio and Reggie and it was good....but it definitely could of been better. Halloween was fun....I drank...scared people with my costume....I scared myself. It was kind of freaky. Saturday sucked balls...and today sucked even worse. details? nah...why detail the shitty shit? It will resolve. The rain tonite...was definitely appropriate for the shit that I had to deal with at home...it wasnt anything traumatizing....but it was kind of depressing...in a shitty kick to the stomach kind of way. But I learned not to dwell on shit so much...whatever happens is meant to happen. and for other things? well, I would like to know some outcome... |
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| You're my shooting star.... |
[Oct. 22nd, 2003|11:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Thrice | ] |
watching Michelle Branch in concert tonite....watching a movie alone tonite...just makes me think of how great it would be to be cuddling with somebody while I experience these moments. On the bright side...I got Michelle Branch's guitar pik...yay...I love momento....I will cherish it forever. Anybody wanna cuddle? |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 22nd, 2003|01:37 am] |
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| |  envious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | John Mayer | ] |
Thrice, Thursday, and Coheed and Cambria were amazing last night. Everything went great besides Thrice not playing Identity Crisis...bastards. Oh well, I still love that band. I am starting to really get irritated with pessimistic people...I would like to just add that. |
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| Concert Craze, Homework out my Ace, Ummm..and thoughts??? |
[Oct. 15th, 2003|07:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Brand New, Juliana Theory, Jawbreaker | ] |
Well, the Saves the Day, Taking Back Sunday, and Moneen show was not as great as it could be. Saves The Day did great but other than that... Oh well, Thursday, Thrice, and Coheed and Cambria Monday night baby! Yeah, Conrad and Janel are going with me and it shall be awesome. I need a Thrice zipup hoody. I want to buy a nice outfit too. I mean black dress pants, red long sleeve dress shirt, black shoes, and a black tye, and a black belt with a tiny skull on the buckle. Yeah I got that idea from Alkaline Trio but it would be cool to have. Homework is kicking my ass....maybe I should blame it on God...hmm....or maybe I should just organize myself better and get my ass in gear and things will be ok. Hmm...maybe that sounds like a plan. I think you must have a lot more education on the topic of God, church, and religion before making any assumption on whether God plays any part in the case of your life turning to shit. Maybe he would be there to encourage or motivate you if you were there for him as well. Just a thought...just a thought. He isn't going to hand everything over on a silver-platter. Just like everything else...you must work...you must serve...you must keep going. and may I add.....this is nothing to go haywire over...no reason to get offended about. Just keep your thoughts to yourself if you are going to bitch me out. If you have a debate for me...then that is fine...but the drama....you can keep and shove it up your ace! |
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[Oct. 7th, 2003|11:50 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jubilant | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Ataris | ] |
I am seeing Taking Back Sunday and Saves The Day tonite. I know everybody is jealous. I got some cstone and riot pics back yesterday....(smiles)....memories. Yeah since the cubs won the other night it was freaking crazy in Normal, Illinois. A riot broke out through the streets. It was a blast. The cops had paintball guns and everything.
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